November 21, 2013

I Love My Cornea

I've been a user and fan of softlenses since six years ago. They really help me to replace my glasses and fix my sight. Yes, precisely, to fix my confidence. I know wearing them everyday is not good, but i still ignore the advice.

Let me give some conditions, when i was in office or in class and the air conditioner was so cold - it could make the eyes dry and the lens covered the cornea from getting enough oxygen, or when the heat of sun attacked - it could melt the lens and hurt the eyes. Another one, when i was in public transportation or motorcycle, then dust, polluted air came by - my eyes  weren't protected well and the lens made the situation worse.

Though the discomfort often happened, but i still didn't stop. The maximum usage for a day was 8 hours, but i extended it until more than 12 hours and the worst part, yes... i fell asleep. I still wore them when i slept. What a big mistake! This careless habit often happened unpurposely :( Sometimes when i woke up the eyes were red and itchy, because the lenses scratched the eyes when i slept. I still didn't care because in the morning they used to be good soon.

Until in one morning, here came a moment, i got trouble in my eyes. I fell asleep again when i wore lens, aaaand the eyes were red like getting punched, i couldn't see the light, they always made tears when i tried to look to the front. I also got flu. I knew something wrong, and i should go to doctor :(

First, let me tell you why i hate glasses. I wore glasses when i was seven years old. I needed minus two lenses. It really made me shocked. My friends and my cousins often bullied me and called me old. I was embarassed and didn't want to wear them outside the house. I grew up and when i was ten, it was worse, minus two increased to be five. So the feeling of being bullied continued until senior high school. Nobody actually really wanted to like me because i was nerd and ugly.

Okay, back to the present. Yesterday, i went to doctor in sector 4 Bintaro. My boyfriend picked me up and he was mad because i ignored the advice and hurt myself :( Doctor said my corneas were injured, and i should stop wearing lens for a while, not extend it more than 8 hours, and always washed my hands if i needed to touch the lens. She gave me Floxa Ofloxacin and Cenfresh, the liquid medicine used to fix ans rebuild the cornea by dropping them to eyes regularly. She also gave me vitamin to help the impuls of sight system. I used to be dizzy sometimes :/

So, this post is a therapy. I am an adult and i promise to myself to keep my sight properly. One of the greatest gifts Allah gives to me :(

I love my glasses. I really love myself wearing those glasses ♡

So, readers, please love your body, love yourself. You will not get the second chance to turn back time when you lose it. And, remember this: the person who really loves you will always love you just the way you are :)

"Remember no one can make you feel inferior without your consent" - Eleanor Roosevelt.