January 29, 2013

#12 Mei untuk Maret: Pada Akhirnya

bahwa pelukanmu menjadi salah satu tempat yang paling nyaman, dimana kenangan bersenandung dengan riang, aroma parfum yang muncul dari kerah kemeja, napas yang terendus pelan, dan degup jantungmu yang tenang, membuatku terlelap dengan rasa aman. sangat aman. tolong jangan bangunkan aku, karena aku sedang berada pada sebuah garis linear dimana mimpi dan kenyataan berada pada keindahan yang sama.

dan aku jadikan dadamu sebagai bantalan tempat sang tulang rusuk telah lama tersimpan yang kini menjadi aku yang kau muliakan. lalu kau sandarkan kepalamu, mata terpejam dengan ringan. kau selalu bilang bahwa senyumku adalah penghilang beban paling ampuh ketika kau pulang. sementara itu, kupu-kupu menari dalam perut, harapan yang meletup-letup mengiringi doa-doa untuk masa depan yang terselip di sepanjang penghujan, air mata yang enggan keluar, dan perasaan yang muncul tak tertahan bercampur kesyukuran, seakan aku menjadi perempuan paling beruntung yang pernah Tuhan ciptakan. 

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previous entries

January 28, 2013


Been so empty and stressful these days, so I decided to go home. The last time I came home was on Eid, and it was more than 5 months. I missed them so bad :')

But there was something different. A special guest came with me this time. And it feels like one of the happiest days in my life. We five ate together in dining room, we laughed, dad shared stories, brother got bigger, and mom slept beside me then hugged me while I was sleeping. So warm, I didn't want to wake up. And him - he looked so gentle and so sweet.

Those are days that I should be grateful a lot. I could conquer my fear. I could see what I never saw, I already knew what I never knew. Thank You Allah. May mom and dad's prayers be my savior always. I believe. I believe.

Unfortunately, 4 days seems not enough. I still miss them too much :(

January 14, 2013

First Post in Janua-Rain! :D

So, this is my first post in 2013 and huhuuuuy... already reaches 100.000 viewers. Oh dear, thank you so much :')

My new year began with a very good sleep, some silent resolutions, and frustrating smartphone. My blackberry totally died and it didn't turn on for days huuu. At first, I felt fine because being away from phone successfully healed the stress and annoying people... but in the other hand, it seemed like I disappeared from earth, LOL! So, I brought my blackberry to service center in ITC Cempaka Mas - the software was error and it had to be reinstalled and the media card slot was wet and broken because of heavy rain these days. My database was lost, but it's okay, I can use the device again though I have to re-invite my blackberry contacts! But... satisfied! Some people suggest that I should change my blackberry but I still think that I don't need it. I still use Gemini type that I bought from my first salary and I'm not the type of person who care much with gadget style with endless changing over and over again and over again in a short time nowadays.

Then, some new responsibilities make workload bigger and me more sensitive hoho. But having a lot activities is something that we should be grateful right? :) The first semester of my lecturing also been done. Alhamdulillah. And it's been long that I don't read book until I fall asleep, so I borrow three books this week: Quantum Qalbu, Agatha Cristhie, and Catatan Ichiyo.

This month feels like Janua-rain right? Clouds and sky kingdom shows their power with cute huge rain and cold weather everyday. Thanks to rubber shoes that save our feet well hihi.

And how about heart?

It is still blooming everyday! :)

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